today is the 5th month i've left Zinc. i dunno why am i keep on tinking abt tis co. tat's nothing much for me to remb liao.. most of my frens in Zinc oso left..

Now is Sept liao.. i tink i got alot alot of problems cuming up...
i really dunno hw to settle wrk's prob.. caused by alvin caused by money!! *face e fact* no money actually cant solve any prob. but even if we got e money, we're nt responsible for the debts alvin owed rite? nw im realy realy worried.. e future.. wat m i gonna do?? yes im stil young, i can stil find jobs. wat abt my parents? they put so much efforts inside... hai~ all i can say is Heaven is really unfair.. =(

Frens. oso got prob. why? i believe everyone dun lik to b cheated.. i dunno wat im doing is correct ant but is against my wish! Why yq tog w my bro muz b a secret? dun let us noe?? izzit a trend?? Den why izzit she came to my hse sleepover? she's my sis, sleepover @my hse is nth.. but.. she slept at my bro's bed tog w my bro. TIS IS WAT I CANT TOLERATE!! as a couple, being the elder one.. u shld noe wat's right wat's wrong. Inside my bedroom, consisting my lil' bro or my lil' sis & me.. yet u all can do such ting.. Doing tings tat r not suppose to b seen by others.. PLS KINDLy SPARE A THOUGHTS FOR OTHERS!! secretly gg to resort tog, wats e meaning of tis?? ask bee leng not to lemme noe... wats e meaning again?? i realy dun lik to b sandwiched in between them.. i really hate e feeling. i really regretted tat last tym kip di siao dem.. let em hab e chance to get closer to each other. Seriously im very very sure tat der's other ting tat is stil kept in e dark.. i noe i read their blog is wrong.. but tis is not wat i wan. If dey didnt meant to kip alot of tings in e dark, i tink i wun do such tings oso. i noe im in e wrong too. My sincere apologies. i can do nth but to jus let tings happen. & seriously i do hope dey will break off soon... im nt being wicked or mean but i dun lik e sandwiched feeling. 1 is my bro 1 is my gd sis.. wat m i gg to do!!?? pls help.

love. i hate to enter tis topic but i cant. i muz confess Until nw i stil tink if james. i hope he will call me for help but im afraid im unable to. Recently juz went to eat ice-cream w jane & she finally admit her feelings to james. i can tell she lik him long ago... hmmm~ but she's gd coz she told me her prob. totally unlike my sister.. even tho' i felt awkward but i din say much. im very sure even my closest gf likes him, he's still the 1 tat stole my heart away few yrs back. he's locked inside my heart & my heart's name "JAMES" whn i 1st saw him..
right nw, there's a guy tat lemme tink of him everyday.. i dunno if im asking for trouble. he's an attractive guy which kills alot of gals. lol~ know him @Qw but shld say is thru jane. i dun understand him at all.. but hope i could get a chance to do so. aunties in Qw ask me not to b too closed w him juz in case im hurt by him.. but perhaps we look close but in reality we dun. my frens, my cousin ask me to ask him out.. muz grab e chance.. i did it. ask him out for movie.. he din accept but oso no reject muz c his wrking schedule.. after which, i din make e effort to call him.. to make our movie date a reality. i thought i realy lik tis guy.. & even tink of married. haha~ but tat was very lame. after a few struggle, i managed nt to tink of him too much & yes.. let fate do it. im nt gonna do tings again. Come to tink of it, i tink he oso nt interested in me totally. i muz wake up frm my dream!! wat being tog.. wat married.. wat meet parents.. *ALL RUBBISH* yeah, if he's interested in me, he would hab taken actions. not me...

hmmm.. Im DETERMINE to ON DIET.... muz love myself before other will love me.. !!!

Updated@Friday, September 05, 2008